Fear never wins.

Whoa! Fear is a crazy mother f*çkr!

I had an assignment for the past week to do one IG Live before my session with my coach Rob Reynosa today. And sure enough, I hadn't done it.

I started telling him all the reasons why I was considering doing a LIVE on another platform, and I wanted to monetize it and blah, blah, blah... It all sounded legit. But he wasn't having it. Lol.

Since I pay him to push, nudge, guide and hold space for my evolution, he suggested we stop our call, and I go straight to IG and push LIVE.

As soon as we got off the phone, I started mentally and emotionally having a breakdown. There was this overwhelming fear rocking my core values, and I was surprised at how much it had a hold on me. It was as if I was emotionally paralyzed and couldn't move forward with the assignment.

I called him back to let him know I wasn't ready. There was still too much pain from being rejected by friends and family for telling the truth. I felt as if I was going to be bashed down again if I put myself out there on social media. It was such a strange feeling, especially since it was a relatively easy task.

In my entire life, I have never not moved past my mental fears. I asked myself, "Who is this person right now? I don't recognize her at all." 

And within seconds, I realized this is what it must feel like when dancers who don't freestyle are told to freestyle. I've seen that type of paralyzation before but never understood it until today. Wow.

The fear and pain felt so real; all I wanted to do was shut down and feel "safe."

As I shared what was coming up with my coach, he gently invited me to do IG Live with him instead. I think the reason I was able to say yes to this other approach was that I felt a sense of safety, and I knew the fear wasn't real. I knew it was all in my head. Plus, it's not in my DNA to succumb to mental blocks that show up. I always, always, always find a way to move forward.

Rob and I agreed to start at a specific time. So I went and put my face back together, grabbed my tripod and headphones, and hit the Instagram icon. Within seconds, we were talking LIVE on IG, and I was like a fish in water.

I was able to move past an excruciating fear thanks to my friend and coach, Rob.

Today was a victory. Because not only did I get past the mental anguish, but I was set free.

And there's no more significant win than being free.

With lots of LOVE,
Teresa

PS. You can now find me on IG Live every Thursday at 2pm PT @teresa.espinosa22

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