Truth Be told.

What I'm about to share is my honest inner dialogue about how I see my very distant friends and family. I wrote this thinking I'm only speaking to myself. But in my meditation, I was told to tell my truth, even if it's on the uglier side.

I share these thoughts because I want to BE better. And as you will see, I have a lot to work through.

This is about being open, honest, and transparent. Take what you will.

----- Written @ 5:30pm PT 1/30/22 -----

I feel pretty sick to my stomach when I think about the people in my life that have turned their backs on me. I feel betrayed and disappointed in their distancing and lack of seeing clearly. My list feels long. 

I want to forgive and release myself from needing to prove they're on the wrong side of history. It's not up to me to have them realize anything. And then, I struggle with knowing that speaking up affects people's consciousness when they act out of integrity, like the Germans who went along with the Nazi program. They knew and didn't say anything, and some actively participated in the acceptable moral culture of that horrific moment in history. And that's how I see my friends and family. They are actively participating in social discrimination and segregation based on people's health "status." It's literally insane.

Will there be consequences? And why do I want them to suffer? I want them to be wrong and proven wrong so badly. 

I know this is my ego talking. And I want to let that part of my experience go to truly be at mental and emotional peace and not draining my energy.

I want to be full and filled with LOVE. I want to embody being genuinely LOVING. No need to correct anyone. Or is it okay to speak up and out in a loving manner? 

When I think about ACIM, it talks about not playing into the "dream" or the unreality of the illusion. They are not separate, and I am, in a sense talking about myself when I say all of these things because the TRUTH is there is NO separation. So why would I wish any of this negativity on myself?

I don't.

I want to be freeeeeeee. I AM FREE. My part is to own my Freedom and express that.

I forgive myself for thinking all of these negative things about the people I say I love and care for. Those negative reflections are NOT who I am. I AM more than that. I AM LOVE and FREEDOM. And so are they.

Ultimately, there is no one I need to forgive because we are co-creating in an illusion. And the Truth will set us FREE.

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Being human, there is a challenge of letting the ego lead or expressing the Spirit of Love. I know which way I choose to go. Now it's a matter of Being It.

With lots of LOVE,
Teresa

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